Fighting to live with Chronic Pain, please help

I am 21. I am young. I played soccer for my university, and I was a highly competitive cheerleader. I was a jock. I played every sport. I won races, and competitions. I have jackets, and trophies filling my closet and basement. I was happy.

Then slowly, pain crept in. It took over. It ruined relationships. It scared me. Treatments, and surgeries took over my planner. Nothing worked. I have tried everything. I have travelled to different countries looking for help. I have accepted that this pain will last forever.

Lately things have been very bad. The pain has made it hard to concentrate. Pain meds don’t relieve the pain, and I can barely concentrate. I feel like I’m living in hell. I feel alone. I feel depressed. I need help, because I don’t know how to do this. I don’t know how to live like this. I want to be happy. I want to learn.

I feel like a burden to my family, friends, and boyfriend. I text them constantly and I seem clingy. I am home alone though while they are out. They are the things that make my bad days slightly bare able. Please help. Please give me hope. Please give me kind words. I don’t know how long I can live like this.

8 thoughts on “Fighting to live with Chronic Pain, please help”

  1. I have been in chronic pain for 25 years and now I am in the same boat as you. Please keep the hope its sounds like you have people around you that love you tell them what you are feeling. Its hard sometimes to let our true feelings come out instead anger and rage boil up. I pray you find something that will help you!

  2. I’m sitting in a waiting room at a chronic pain center reading your post knowing exactly how your feeling!! This is year eleven for me and my pain which is a traumatic brain injury. All I can say is that I find praying and meditation is helpful to keep me grounded, as well as believing that they will find something that will eventually help. I will include you in my prayers and really hope you finds ways to manage.

  3. I want you to get better. I want you to be happy. Things will get better, please be strong. Talk to your friends, tell them how you feel. You can overcome this.

  4. Just know u r never really alone Darling I too have chronic pain since I was 15 and had a back injury as a track sprinter and I’m now 50 still unending pain…I know the feeling of being a burden and so wanting to be able but never seeming to accomplish anything you want…it’s not easy but you r meant to be here, we nay not understand why but have faith…God Bless you!:)

    1. I was just recently diagnosed with Fibromyalgia….but major problems are continuous herniated discs and exhaustion. I have been reading patient stories on many websites to try and understand….to see what I am facing and what I can do that might help myself. I have been touched by many stories and identified with some. One thing I sadly identify with is feeling alone in this. But this was the first time I felt compelled to respond to what someone wrote. Thank You for writing to ask what you could do to help your wife! That you are even reading these websites and trying to understand what she is going through and how you can help, gives ME hope that there are good people out there that don’t have to have experienced something themselves to still have compassion; to not just stick their heads in the sand because of how someone else’s life has inconvenienced theirs; and want to do everything they can to help someone else. Even if your wife knows how you are trying, that in itself has got to make her feel a little better (I know it would me). I don’t have what she does, and I hope that those that do can give you more specific ideas. All I can offer is to keep letting her know you are there for her and will do everything you can to try and help her. Really…..God Bless You.

  5. Have you considered medical marijuana? It’s the only drug that wipes out my pain. I don’t recommend smoking, it’s very ineffective for pain. Vape pens with Indica are best. There are topical sprays, tinctures, & a 1000 mg brownies last me over a week. It’s given me hope when I would have ended my suffering if I only had Rx to depend on. Consider moving to one of the 22 states where it’s legal. Above all, don’t quit. You never know what miracle will cross your path tomorrow.

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