I have survived cancer! I can not be happier and I fought with ALL I had inside me to beat cancer. I had only been engaged to the love of my life for four weeks and I had two children ages 7 and 10. There was no way I was leaving any of them.
My parents moved in as I was a single mom at the time and took care of me 24/7. They were the best they cooked and cleaned and got me to every single doctor’s appointment I had.
After two years I am cancer free and life should be perfect right? Well due to my tumor in my sinuses and right eye orbit I have been left with headaches 24/7. I look soooo much better then I have in the past two years!
I try to be perfect for everyone. But inside I am breaking. My headaches that I try to hide from everyone are killing my very being. I am on pain medicine and it really does not see to help it too much. While it does decrease the pain sometimes the majority of the time I have a headache. I my temple, forehead, neck and face….
I seem to snap quickly as it is always there then the littlest things set me off. I typically can not control it, as again, inside I am in knots from the pain and then something aggravates me and off I go.
I do not want to complain about my headaches to my husband as he has heard it! I do not want to complain to my parents as I do not want them to worry any more then they have to. I have to be a strong mom for my kids so most of the time I just put a smile on and not let anyone see what I am going through inside.
Who can help? This pain has to go away as I can not continue to live like this. It is not fair it is debilitating and is ruining my happiness and who I am as a person.
I want my “old” self back, the one before cancer who was happy and fun to be around. The one that was silly and loved to be outside doing just about anything.
Pleas help me find my relief!