My name is Tara and I am from Ohio. I am 29 years old. I have a daughter that is 8. Everything she knows is mommy being sick.
I have Lupus and Loin Pain Hematuria Syndrome. It struck me in 2000. I had several kidney stones and had to have surgery to remove them. Ever since I have had dibilitating pain. I went to many urologist and they all told me the pain was in my head. went on antidepressants and began thinking maybe it was me! I met a wonderful urologist who said I was the first patient he had diagnosed with LPHS. That’s when all my medications started being prescribed. The pain was not being taken care of. I could barely get out of bed. I was vomitting every other day. I had lost 30 pounds in 4 weeks. I slept 20 hours out of everyday. How could I take care of my daughter? My pain was not my first worry but my daughter seeing me that way and worrying what kind of chances she will have in getting these diseases. That thought just killed me. My depression sunk even lower and I was going through a divorce. I noticed I was a totally different person and hated it.
I look back now and I am so glad I made journal enteries. I often thought how much easier it would be if I just died. Now that I am on a road to becoming myself again, I can’t believe what I wanted to do to myself.
I have recently had a pain pump implanted. I am having alot of success with the procedure. However it is causing new pains. My right leg is completely numb and I am having awful pain that meds are not helping. They think that my pump is sitting on a nerve. The only way to fix that is to have the surgery done again, moved and have the possibility of it happening on the other side.
I would recommend this to anyone with chronic pain if you are a canidate for it. It really has given me a piece of my life back. I no longer feel like I am dying. I am able to take my child outside to play and out shopping. I am still living with pain but it is much tolerable. My Lupus still is something I am dealing with daily. But the rare kidney disease is so much better. I am lucky that I have wonderful doctors that have supported me. I was a guinea pig in there office for the pain pump. They knew of how bad the pain had effected me and decided this was my only hope. God bless smart doctors.
If anyone would like information, I would be glad to answer your questions the best I can. Thanks for reading my story. Hopefully I will chat with those of you who share similar situation. I find it is a stress reliever to know there are people out there that are in my same boat. My husband doesn’t understand so it has been a long, hard road alone.