I pray but has God forgotten me?

I had a rotten childhood. Alcoholic mother, unaffectionate father. Couldn’t wait to get married & get out of the house. But the husband was a rotten apple. He gave me two beautiful sons. My two sisters live far away & most of the people I worked with for 45 years have forgotten about me. I had two months of a great retirement, then injured my shoulder, & had three surgeries in two years. I am in chronic pain, do everything I can to feel better but my favorite part of the day is nighttime when I don’t have to think about anything. I don’t have the drive to do anything, mostly because I end up in bad pain. So I sit in my arm chair, watch tv, & if someone calls, try to act normal. My younger son who is 35 lives with me so I depend on him to do errands. He has Aspergers Syndrome but is high functioning. He has many of his own problems but would do anything in the world for me. He is the only one I see & talk to each day. My oldest son is an attorney in another state. I think he wishes he could do more for me but he loves his life & I want him to be happy. I have two younger sisters who live 2 hours away. They married great guys, have great kids, go on vacations & call on occasion. I hear them telling me to get out more, join the senior groups, I’ll feel better. But nobody knows what chronic pain is like unless they have it. If I get up from my chair right now, & start doing something , even taking a shower, the pain will get worse & I’ll be sitting back down in no time. Doing my exercises results in the same way. Maybe God will take me soon, but first I need to get a special needs trust for my son so he will be taken care of.

3 thoughts on “I pray but has God forgotten me?”

  1. Bless you. I am so sorry for your troubles. Don’t lose hope. God has not firgotten you. I have prayed for you. I find that playing and singing praise music changes the atmosphere around me and in me. https://youtu.be/XxkNj5hcy5E
    Here is a link to one of my favorite victory and praise songs.
    It is called I am a child of God by Jonathan and Melissa Helser. You can find it on YouTube if this link doesn’t work. One of my favorite scriptures is Psalm 23. Reading it aloud even if it is just a whisper brings peace to my soul.
    Forgive me if this sounds like a to-do list. I just wanted to share with you what I have. Silver and Gold have I none but what I have I want to give to you. Be strong and courageous Child of God. God is Father to the fatherless and husband to the husbandless and faithful friend to the outcast. I don’t know your name but rest assured He does and he loves you beyond measure. Be well in Jesus name.

    1. My name is Deborah and I am in pain continually just like the letter and I pray and I pray I pray and I pray if God could just take it away this pain right now.

  2. Is this what God purposed? You may find it helpful to check the website JW.org & type this question into the search box. I’m prayimg that you & all that are suffering will find the strength to deal with it all ?

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