Be a true friend or please walk away

I have been living with chronic pain for about 3 years now because of a hip condition that the Doctors will not treat because they say I am too young. My pain on a daily basis is always an 8 or more and its being treated by prescription narcotics that I have to rely on someone else to get for me because of lack of Medical insurance or a doctor willing to help. I just recently found a doctor that is going to do the surgery and states that the damage from waiting so long might be permanent and irreversible, nerve damage that might cause paralysis. I truly in my life cannot say that there is one person that understands exactly what I am going through on a day to day basis, realizes the extent of my pain and even believes that I am actually going though what I am saying that I am. I do not feel like I can trust anyone’s judgment of me at this point and am really tired of the gossip and innuendos not to mention the guilt some have made me feel because of not being able to be me more. I am so very tired of hearing “Just think positive and you will have a good day” or “Maybe if you did not think about it so much it would not be as bad” and the all time favorite “Don’t worry it will all be over with sooner than you think” I cannot do anything I used to be able to do anymore and people are not understanding that and are actually getting mad because of it. I just wish I could get someone to finally understand and know what I am going through to feel my pain.

2 thoughts on “Be a true friend or please walk away”

  1. I feel your pain. I’m 25 years old and have dealt with chronic pain for the past 3 1/2 years – with no end in sight.

    I’m married to a wonderful, loving husband and we have 2 young boys, 2 & 4. I can’t keep up with them on a day to day basis. Without pain medication, I can’t cook dinner or bathe them without tears in my eyes . They’re constantly asking me “does your back hurt mommy? I’ll rub it and make it all better!” It never works 🙁

    I can’t live a normal life and no one understands, besides someone else living in chronic pain. The depression and anxiety that come with it are almost worse than the pain!!!

    Hang in there. You are not alone, although I know I feel it everyday. Praying for you

  2. To the author unknown
    I have experienced everything you’ve stated. I can’t help but I can relate.
    I’m very thankful that you can put into words my life, so thanks and amen,
    R

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